“no fucking reason” is because you spent a long ass day at your shitty job being abused by either your boss or shitty customers, did groceries, came home, cleaned some, paid your bills, cooked food, took a quick shower then collapsed on the bed.

Your sleeping time is the only time that you are free to spend how you like, so that’s what you do.

Makes sense. Wanting to sleep is basically choosing unconsciousness over consciousness. Even when tired I’d rather be conscious.

I open lemmy while exactly doing that and also thinking about it and this is the first post I see. I think this is a sign and therefore I came to the conclusion that I should go sleep at last.

I’ve heard that it’s your brain trying to get itself enough dopamine to justify living another day. If your entire existence is only misery, you tend to… “tap out earlier”.

i have a new trick: i convince myself, if i go sleep early quickly, i can get up at 2am and play games and watch movies until morning light. for some mysterious reason actually getting up at 2am then only works 1 in 3 times, but somehow i still feel good about it. can recommend.

• I’m in this post and I don’t like it

I started turning my phone screen off occasionally and then turning it back on while laying in bed. Sometimes it gets me past the not feeling like falling asleep part and I end up knocking right out instead of dragging it out for hours becuase I don’t feel tired. Also prevents me from deciding “I’m going to fall asleep now” and turning off the phone because that never works and I end up more awake than when I was staring at the phone. Same feeling as nodding off to a TV show

This was me yesterday.

“Lemme just check [thing] to catch up before tomorrow’s meeting” Opens up youtube

That is procrastinating. PRocrastinating to sleep.

Even if I get in to bed I won’t sleep. Might as well be doing something fun in the meantime and stay up