A 32 year old trans girl living without easy access to trans affirming care. On DIY-HRT for the last 6 years. She/they please, preferably she/her. Will not tolerate transphobia or bigotry of any kind.

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Cake day: October 1st, 2024

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  • I was called a freak by my mother and father who told me I would never be a woman, that I’m a man pretending to be a woman. That I was destroying my body by doing HRT. Average shit from right-wing parents. And they wonder why I don’t talk to them anymore. Maybe your daughter hates you because you refuse to accept her, and repeatedly deadname and misgender her whenever she called you.

    Yeah that was most definitely my worst birthday, so glad I cut those dipshits out of my life.













  • I really hope at some point you get to a point where you can feel comfortable expressing yourself in ways that match who you are. I’ll admit it does take some hard work, but the rewards are often worth it, they come in the form of self-acceptance and being happy with who you are.

    would be a 6’3 trans woman with shoulders like an NFL linebacker, and likely in my mid to late 40s at best.

    I know many people who felt that same way and they still pass wonderfully, yes it does take hard work and does take time. But it’s nowhere near as hopeless as it seems.

    My family is never going to disown me, mind, I could burn down an orphanage on Christmas Eve and dance in the ashes and my mom would be livid, but that lady would love me and I’d be still welcome at dinner.

    I’m glad to hear that your family is accepting. That’s more than I can say for my family. I haven’t talked to them in almost 7 years. They wanted nothing to do with me when I came out as trans, and were especially disgusted by the idea of me being on HRT. It’s nice to hear that your family will still accept you even if you choose to make changes.

    I’m never going to feel comfortable in my own skin, so I figure I might as well be uncomfortable and still enjoy the benefits and privilege of cis white guy status. Do I hate my body? Yes. Do I wish I could change in fundamental ways that go far beyond simple weight loss or whatever? God yes. Do I realistically have the resources to make that happen and reach a point where I think I could like my body? No.

    I used to feel a very similar way before my egg broke. I thought I could just push it down and live life as a normal cis boy. I couldn’t. The dysphoria eventually becomes unbearable. It can feel overwelming and hard to take the first steps, hard to make the first changes. I recommend taking things slow and starting with little things. Maybe you might not be ready for HRT but maybe try out some little social things that might make you happy, like makeup or nail polish, just something that feels gender affirming to you. You could even do these things in private. Just little things that can be first steps then take it slowly from there.

    Oh God. I’ve never actually admitted any of this before, and I’m a little scared shitless right now. I seriously may delete this.

    It’s okay if you want to talk to me about it more privately I can do it in DMs . If you want to reach out to others in the community here are some good communities that can help:

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    If you want to speak in a more private place I’d recommend joining the Blahaj.zone group on Matrix, instructions on how to join that here: https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/15256176