It’s fine to think it’s weird. It’s part of the process of growth (of ideas I mean, nothing to do with your own age). Continue to think about it though, and it won’t be weird anymore. (I know… it sounds “weird” for me to say that?:-P)

And on the other side of that, you will find something MUCH better - that women are people, almost literally exactly like you are. Except not precisely bc duh differences exist -but also yes, just as there are short or tall or medium sized men, there are people who are men, and there are people who are women. And we all shit. 😂

You were lifting up women as being “special” somehow - which is part of the mystery, and girls literally play into that by attempting to hold back farts, belches, etc. (and guys do the same, getting high-paying jobs, driving sports cars, wearing toupets to cover bald spots, pretending to have confidence while hiding their true feelings, which is really quite damaging but that’s the game and if you don’t play then you absolutely lose, etc.) - but an even deeper mystery awaits on the other side of that, realizing just how equal they are, even despite how you had a crush on them. Like, that wasn’t a doll that you liked, it was a person… who is full of so many more surprises and wonders (and farts and yes literal shit too, until it comes out and goes into the toilet:-). And I daresay that you would be quite incapable of loving a “person” so long as you continued to think of them as a “doll”, but now that you realize this, you can actually, TRULY love someone.

Btw, don’t be tempted to get too down over this. Some people have been married for years and years before they figure this out - not that “everyone poops”, bc that you figure out quite quickly, you know?:-P - but bc life can get busy, and leave you not that much time to think (there’s school, maybe college, maybe grad school, there’s work, there’s kids, it’s all A LOT!), some people in the past could get quite far into a marriage without ever fully realizing the full impact of what this means; that women are full-on people too. So, if you have time to think, and the willingness to do so, think about it, and see where that takes you.:-) 😉