It was 2 years ago in summer. I was a 22 y. o. girl who just broke up with her 24 y.o. boyfriend. After 1 month he asked me to meet with him to discuss some issues. We’ve met in a park. At the beginning he acted normally, but then he started becoming aggressive, we started to argue and all of a sudden he grabbed my throat and started strangling me. I got shocked since he’s like 6’3" tall and strong and I’m just 5’2". But then I remembered that I had a pocket knife with me. So I quickly pulled it out of my right pocket and just plunged it right into his belly up to the hilt. He exclaimed like: “Ugh! Shit! My gut!” and I felt he’s starting to loosen his grip. I pressed the knife as deep as possible into his belly - my heart was racing out of stress as I did it, feeling his soft belly leaning onto my right hand and hearing him moaning deeply like: “Haugh! Hoooooooooooooooogh!” (he just had a really deep voice). Finally, as he took his hands off my throat, I twisted the blade and pulled it out. He clatched his wounded belly with both hands and fell on his knees.
I then called the police and ambulance. Luckily there was a camera nearby, so I could prove myself right. I got justified, my ex survived and got convicted.
You spent a strangely long amount of time just describing the stab, especially considering the 4 word sentence establishing the scene. Makes me think this is just an excuse to write about someone getting stabbed in the stomach.
Also, I remember someone on here who was also oddly fixated on gut stabs. Like, it came up a lot, and often seemed like a forced way to talk about gut stabs. I figured it was either an excuse for being bad at fencing, or it was a sex thing. I initially assumed it was the same guy who wrote this.
You’re probably thinking of @BeReady77@lemmy.world. I’ve been expecting another post any day but wasn’t anticipating a name change.
I don’t know what you are talking about, sorry. I haven’t seen the posts you are talking about. I just described pretty detailed the whole situation, thats it
His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy. There’s vomit on his sweater already, mom’s spaghetti
If you haven’t talked to a therapist about this, please do so. Even if you were physically ‘fine,’ what you’re describing would be pretty traumatic for most people. Feeling guilty about defending yourself is totally normal, even though it was completely justified and there was every reason to believe he was trying to kill you. It means you’re a normal person with empathy who doesn’t just want to stab people.
even though it seems justified, I can image that’s a lot to deal with emotionally
Yep, it is
yeah that’s rough, I can imaging even more traumatizing with someone you had a relationship with. unfortunately no matter how much we might want a graceful resolution, when someone crosses boundaries like that there’s no “good” way to handle it—they have already forced you in a position where you are being hurt, trapped, or defenseless. there needs to be some level of consequence when boundaries are crossed like this, otherwise the same problems just get worse and worse over the years. i think the most important thing is to not internalize it as part of your identity. that’s not who you are at all, it was a reasonable decision you made quickly in a dangerous situation. even animals have boundaries and will lash back if you cross them, and unfortunately there’s a lot of people that won’t understand unless they really feel it
Yep, you’re right
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I think the initial stabbing is fine in regards of a self-defense reaction. The twist is excessive and, like someone has already said, the level of detail you’ve gone into specifically for the stabbing is more than a little odd. To me, it makes it sound like you enjoyed stabbing him more than you enjoyed surviving the assault. Definitely see a psychiatrist.
Seems justified. If anything you practiced restraint by not killing him. If I was in your place I’m not sure I would have stopped because I’d be too scared that the wound wasn’t enough and that he might get up at any moment and start attacking me again.
Thanks. Don’t you think wounding his belly (a soft and vulnerable area) in such a way was too cruel?
Cruel? Of the places to be stabbed, the belly is probably one of the least severe ones, especially on males, so long as you get medical attention. Stabbing in a limb could result in long term damage much more easily.
You were in the process of being strangled, even if in hindsight you think you did, you weren’t making a choice with any thought of it being cruel or not. There was likely adrenaline at that point, and panic. No one could successfully argue you had the presence of mind to make a conscious decision to be cruel.
I’m sure you’ll have lifelong trauma, and might need to seek therapy if you aren’t already receiving it. It sounds like a part of what you’re experiencing is a form of survivor’s guilt. But no, how you got yourself out of that situation wasn’t cruel.
Well, thanks!
Though I think the stab was a really brutal one. There are vitals, aorta, pretty much blood in the belly and I heard that its very painful to get stabbed there. Not talking about sepsis risks. And if on top of that he had a meal just before I stabbed him, that should have been a particualrly excruciating stab.
No. He was trying to kill you. Imo any amount of force and any target is justified in that kinda situation. Even if you managed to slice off his balls it’d be justified imo. Granted, if he disengages and you feel safe, then you should stop; I’m just saying that, in the moment, I’m not sure I would have felt safe enough to let him disengage.
Edit: the throat is far more vulnerable than the belly. Smaller target, but significantly easier to damage something in a fatal way.
