What should I do if I don’t have anything to enjoy and I don’t have a bright future to work for/ wait it?
As an extra note, I started to hate dealing with humans and I don’t have any friends.
See a professional, seriously, because this sounds like textbook early depression.
Sadly, I saw 3 different professionals, it does not work.
I was expecting that they won’t have a magic phrase to say and solve my issues before I go to them and I partially went due to the advice of the people around me.
After going and finding out myself, I can confirm that I was right.
Whether it’s through professionals IRL or strangers on the Internet, it’ll require effort on your part. You’re going to have to want to be an active participant and willing to work on yourself. It will be a process, not a single event.
What does “work on yourself” mean in this context?
Changing habits, thought patterns etc. A therapist can’t do that for you, that’s something you have to do yourself thus “work on yourself”
I am tired from people who talk in wide way that can be applied everywhere and would result in nothing.
To add to this, I was following therapist orders, it did nothing.
That is actually is kind of what I meant when I said that I assumed that they don’t have a magic pharse, meaning that they their orders and pills sadly did not work and I was right in the sense that they were unable to solve my issues as I expected.
Your therapist should give you tools to change these things that’s why I mentioned them. You have to use them and want to use them (changing your thought patterns). I see this all the time with people coming here who don’t know how to proceed in life anymore and they always dismiss everything that is said to them. You have to want to change, nobody is doing that for you, they can just give you the tools to do so but ultimately it’s up to you.
For how long? Cause a couple weeks or whatever isn’t going to cut it, it’s a process that can take months or years.
You’re right, there is no magic ‘press button, receive well-adjusted and chemically balanced human being’ button, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t keep trying. Therapy is a process, especially with medication, psychoactive medication is notoriously fucky with a long adaptation phase and weird side effects, some of which stick around and some of which don’t after a few weeks. A couple weeks of therapy and medication isn’t going to cure anything, give them the time they need to work toward your goal, because the alternative is a deep, dark hole you don’t want to go down. Take it from someone who’s been there, and who is only here now, 30 years later, because someone convinced me to stick with the process.
This question is way above Lemmy’s pay grade. I hope your situation gets better. People are right in saying that if self-help fails then it’s time to give professional help another chance if that’s accessible for you.
I do listen to a lot of podcasts and have recently heard something relevant from an expert in the field:
The Happiness Lab with Dr. Laurie Santos: How to Find Your Purpose
Episode webpage: https://omny.fm/shows/the-happiness-lab-with-dr-laurie-santos/how-to-find-your-purpose
Your post history also indicates that you’re routinely steeped in the worst doom news that social media serves up. It seems like it would be worth taking a break from consuming this material and find alternative ways to spend your time.
Did you try jerking off?
Temporary pleasures don’t fill the void.
It would work for small amount of hours before returning to the void of nothingness.
Maybe smoke a joint.
Goddamn I wish I could. People describe it as pleasurable and then relaxing. But I’ve never been able to do it. It’s like either the nerve endings aren’t hooked up right or there is some sort of brain defect, but I lack the ability for pleasure there, myself.
Sorry, I’m not the OP.
Therapy
Learn to love yourself. And look for help. You don’t know what the future will be, things can change drastically sometimes in just a few weeks.
Get a dog. Always happy to see you when you get home, will pester you relentlessly into moderate excercise, #1 wingman for meeting friends or significant others.
I owned a dog for brief amount of time.
Trust me, no.
The dog deserve a better human who can stay active with him.
Schedule everything then? If you’re already nothing then suffering through some anxiety to plan something new isn’t much worse than literally nothing right? So plan shit out, and stick to said schedule. Find a hobby where you can meet people you don’t hate? Music, games, fostering kittens, whatever idk.
You clearly need a community. There are millions of them, plenty accepting. Just ideally find a positive one before you end up in a negative one.
Change your name and/or pronouns. Half joking, a lot of us live overcast lives as a result of feeling trapped in someone else’s life. If you don’t have friends then what’s there to lose?
Life is like a garden. If you want to sit around and curse at the thistles and weeds, you can, but they will continue to grow as you fixate on them. If you see beauty and follow it, then cultivate it, you will be in a beautiful garden. It’s not instantaneous, and it takes work. The work starts in your mind. Negative thoughts will blind you to good opportunities. If you don’t know where you’re going, any place will get you there. Maybe a good place to start is finding the tolerable humans, and see where it takes you.
Been in that state a lot. That’s classic depression. Evo-psych has some stupid ideas but their read on depression is solid. That urge to withdraw from society is a human urge. The urge is designed to lead to either, you leaving your band of primates to seek another, or your fellow group members coming and finding you to show how much you matter to them. Modern life doesn’t let that happen though. So many of our relationships are digital or just shallow so no one can tell you’re leaving, and changing your group in a real way is hard. If you want to feel betterment you have to use your rational brain to seek out what your body is instinctively reaching for. Pick something that you have always cared about, and go to a real life event centered on that thing. This can be almost anything, as long as there are real people, really sharing a physical space. Talk to the people about that thing. Don’t do it just to tick it off the list, you have to pay attention to what they are saying because you need to be able to articulate their ideas and then respond to them.
Either get used to change in the hopes it will become better, or get used to being miserable in my life you have now. By the way, you’re gonna be uncomfortable in One Direction or the other, so I suggest you choose the better one.
If you hate your life now, but are also terrified to change, you’re gonna have to decide which one is worth, and during that discomfort: things staying the same, the way you hate it, or enduring the terror of the unknown, your life, possibly improving.
I don’t think you fully got me here, so let me explain it better.
I feel anxious if I have appointment with a doctor for normal test or diagnosis, I feel anxious about having any new thing introduced to my uneventful days, no matter it’s significance.
This happens to a LOT of us with ADHD.
You need something with regular progression to look forward to. Honestly? Start working out, and start SMALL. I’m talking just even walking. Real physical and mentally felt change happens early with no equipment even needed. There is no feeling quite like “this… actually got easier.” And the progression is infinite. Literally all I’ve been doing lately is two curl exercises before bed and the difference is astounding, not only in mood but energy. I feel more energy during the day just by making a minimal attempt at night.
OK, I think I better understand where you’re coming from, but my advice is pretty much the same.
Life is changed. Constant, unrelenting change. How will you get through that and how happy you are throughout your life often depends directly on how well you can handle change in your life.
I suggest, at the very least, trying to get some practice. Resisting change will only ever make you miserable.
Such thoughts can be very overwhelming, ever present, consuming. Imagine swimming against a strong current. Sometimes it’s important to just take a break. Get out of the stream and watch it rush by. Of course you can’t stay out forever, there are factors beyond your reach, it pulls you back in. But the best bet to beat the pull of this vortex is to try and create as many of these breaks as possible. Small as they may be. While you rest, consider the advice in this thread. It’s benevolent, you know? Consider a dialectic position. For every bad thing that pulls you down, think about a good thing that lifts you up too. Literature can be powerfull too, in that you might discover descriptions, states and emotions in which you find yourself in a way you never could phrase it yourself. It’s all about a balance of “being seen”, receiving empathy, regaining agency and changing perception.
You can try my method: therapy, medication, and counting the days until I die from heart disease.
Psychedelics
This is a discussion to have with professionals in a professional setting. No one here is responsibly equipped to answer this in a chat forum. This obviously includes me.
That being said, I do not think about the future - live your life second-by-second.
Despite what people say, life is not meant to be enjoyed. We live in a time of lawlessness and over-abundance, so people often equate life with enjoying things. At your core, you are a biological package of electrical circuits and tools. When you do something your body deems beneficial, you enjoy it (as in signals reward your brain).
If you want to enjoy, then a general tip is to return to the fundamentals. Eat healthy food, exercise, explore, learn, and talk to people in real life. If this doesn’t work, then you need to speak with a professional (probably a therapist) to find what does.
Hating humans is not viable, you simply need to stop that. This is not to say let yourself be abused and runover, but you need to form bonds with people - this is our inescapable nature.
