First, don’t tell me that the answer is just to “not bottle things up”, because that’s objectively incorrect too. Society doesn’t want you to have any negative emotions. I need to know how to not express negative emotions at all whatsoever unless I’m alone. I know it can be done because it is done in many other people on the planet.
Edit: Ok so I think one of the things I want to try doing next is ask for a med change from my psych provider.
It’s not just about mindfulness or not being negative. It’s addressing your concerns / whatever is upsetting you early. It’s ok to be negative, what’s not ok is letting resentment build till you pop because you never address anything that’s bothering you
Don’t bottle things up.
Journaling has helped me in the past.
Don’t take advice from neutrotypicals.
There’s a lot of really good advice here, I’ll just pitch in one thing I’ve been working on myself lately: mindfulness. Awareness of yourself, your surroundings, and how you feel (both emotionally and physically).
I’ve struggled a lot with the same problem of bottling emotions up, but I often do it because I don’t even register all of the little emotional paper cuts that feed into it. It’s helped me to make it a habit of stopping and assessing myself and asking “hows does this make me feel and why?”
Start doing that for even the little things and you’ll find it gets progressively easier to stop and assess even the bigger things. Won’t always make you feel better, but oftentimes all we need to avoid blowing up is that second of “stop and think” to make us cool off just a bit.
Coping skills. It’s fine to get pissed and you may have a strong sense of justice and need to keep things even and explosions bring things back into equilibrium. A lot of “not exploding” on people can be addressed by what you do ahead of time, giving yourself escape routes, and learning new behaviors to replace explosive ones. These can be alternative activities that are incompatible or functionally just better ways to address situations.
-Identify what happens before you explode. How do you feel, what are you thinking, is it the location, people, etc?
-Time out from that moment until you come down from wanting to take people’s heads off.
-Use strategies that you find to calm you down. Some people go for walks, use stress balls, fidgets, chew gum, color, play a game. I know this will vary wildly depending on your location and what’s acceptable. The point is to find some alternative for a few minutes or even during higher stress that you can do.
-Increase activities that bring you joy. Again these don’t have to cost money and may vary depending on your interests.
One of the most healthy practices you can do is to fully experience negative emotion, let it wash over you and fully occupy you, then breathe deeply and let that emotion go. Holding on to negative emotion has long term health consequences. Remember that you have no control over the world, just your own reactions to the world. I have a lot of anger that I try to let go of this way. Life has become a long series of just being shit on by everyone and everything. But what can I really do about it? Keep working and moving up the ladder to where the shit sandwiches have more bread I guess. In the meantime, I try to practice mindfulness with my emotions and breathe through them. You can use the Dune Litany Against Fear with pretty much any negative emotion.
First, don’t tell me that the answer is just to “not bottle things up”, because that’s objectively incorrect too.
Well, no, it’s not objectively incorrect. I get the sense that the main problem you have is communicating negative emotions without being overly confrontational or acerbic about it. My experience is that it’s very possible to tell someone you’re unhappy about something without making a major deal out of it.
Also, I’m curious about how often you find yourself in the situation we’re taking about. Everybody had occasions where they have to vent frustrating, but if that’s a super frequency occurrence, there might be something else going on. Sometimes it should be enough to take a deep breath, recognize that the issue is minor, and let it go.
It is not super common, but it’s common enough that my friend takes notice. The issue is that I occasionally explode at work which is not good for my job security. Generally if someone is being mean to me or my fellow coworkers I get upset. My supervisor is also a huge bitch who is rude and mean to everyone and I have a hard time dealing with her at times. Most of the times I am able to shut up, but sometimes I get upset with people like that and I react inappropriately.
I have a pretty stressful job. I’ve been doing it for almost twenty years. I have not “exploded at work” once. Not ever.
This isn’t an “expressing emotions isn’t okay” problem, man.
Have you never had anyone bully you or others at work? I’m glad to hear it, man, but we aren’t all that lucky. My coworkers handle it better than me, but I’m also picked on a bit more than them.
This is the first time the bully at work also happens to be my supervisor. I have been able to handle workplace bullies in the past by interacting with them minimally, but I can’t do that when it involves my supervisor.
I’m not sure why you are getting down voted so hard for this. You are describing a very direct awful relationship thats unavoidable. Sort of like an abusive parent.
I would advise you try to find another job, or if you can move laterally in the company that might get you to a different supervisor.
Also, your supervisor can go fuck themselves in their own face.
The worst thing you can do when people are working hard to get a reaction out of you is to give them one. That doesn’t mean you have to be a doormat, but as others have said, there are more constructive ways to react to these kinds of workplace issues. By lashing out you’re only hurting your own credibility in this situation.
You keep repeating the same defenses of the behavior you say you’re trying to stop, though, so I am not quite convinced you want to change these things. It seems more like you want to change how people react to your behavior. If I am wrong, then I apologize and sincerely suggest dialectical behavioral therapy. It teaches you how to manage intense emotions in the moment.
Yeah my one coworker has tried to teach me to just agree to and comply with whatever my bully is saying. I am actually able to do this for a period of time! But after a while, I tend to fail and have a reaction. It especially happens if I am provoked repeatedly in relatively quick succession.
I guess one of my frustrations is that my entire life, I have been taught that I am not supposed to react to people who bully me or otherwise act inappropriately to me or others. I am just supposed to let them do it and try not to show any emotion or reaction in response. I can act passively to try to protect myself, but actively is not correct.
The frustrating thing about it is it just enables bullies to continue bullying while I struggle to maintain composure from repeated incidents.
I guess it’s like…
Not reacting to bullies doesn’t make them go away or fix the problem. Contrary to popular belief, some people don’t stop taking advantage of others just because you aren’t visibly reacting.
But reacting to bullies makes me look like a crazy person.
So what then?
Have you considered going to HR about this? I’ve never confronted a bully directly at work. You need to be indirect, not direct. Not every problem can be solved head on.
Yes I have very recently. It is currently an ongoing ordeal but I am not hopeful. People have gone to HR about my supervisor before and it has never changed anything.
People have threatened to stab me at work.
I’d bet $10 your boss isn’t doing a damn thing besides holding you responsible for not being able to handle your own shit.
I have not threatened to stab anyone. I don’t think that just because my boss doesn’t threaten me with physical violence that it can’t be psychologically damaging. With all due respect, that is a very inappropriate response and comparison.
My supervisor nitpicks me and lectures me for every single little thing that I do. Often I am not even actually making mistakes, but just exercise judgement that is different from hers. The kicker is that she wants me to exercise my own judgement about work tasks, refusing to make specific policies on what she wants. But then she chastizes me for not telepathically knowing that she wanted things another way. She talks down to me and comments on my unconscious physical mannerisms. She is a bully and I am not her first victim.
She absolutely is not “holding me responsible for my own shit”. She is known for being incredibly difficult to deal with and has had many complaints filed against her to HR. She causes a lot of conflict among a lot of different people. HR just doesn’t particularly care and everyone expects me to shut up.
If this happens at work then yeah, definitely a personal trait that you need to work on.
As someone who shares the same trait and has learned to manage it with time, I recommend you look into anger management. Plenty of free stuff online to start with but a professional can be a huge help, if you can afford it or if your workplace is willing to assist you with getting to a resource.
For me the key is being self aware enough that before I blow up I recognize where I’m headed and DISENGAGING until I can settle down. Blowing up, for me, is an ego driven/lashing out issue. It’s complicated and I don’t feel like explaining, but that’s me. I can tell when it’s happening and I care more about not being unprofessional or damaging interpersonal relationships so I DISENGAGE before I get there, which does not FEEL as good, but it’s necessary.
I can’t tell you exactly what you need to do, but I would bet a lot of money that you can start to identify when you’re headed in that direction and stop the train before you go off the tracks. To do so you need to be willing to put your ego aside whether you think you’re right or wrong and LEAVE the room or end the conversation. To do so is not easy because you want to release whatever you’re thinking about the current real/perceived grievance, but if you’re not being a functional member of society because you blow up in a rage then you have to modify your own behavior somehow. Disengaging is the simplest and most effective way to manage it.
With time and more self reflection, personal work, therapy, maturity, whatever - you’ll need to disengage less and less and can manage/cope without that tool. But for now that should be your goal until you learn to control yourself.
This isn’t an other people problem, it’s a you problem. It’s not that you’re not allowed to express yourself, but there are appropriate and inappropriate ways to do so in polite society, between friends and loved ones, and in a workplace. If you can’t admit that then start there.
Get on board or lose friends, break up, and get fired.
Sounds stressful for you and for the folks around you.
I think you’re going to find that most people don’t have great advice for how to do it because it’s not something they’ve struggled to overcome. There might be people here who have that issue or one similar enough, and overcome it, so they can tell you how they did. But your better bet is going to be to look into some kind of anger management techniques.
Society doesn’t want you to have any negative emotions. I need to know how to not express negative emotions at all whatsoever unless I’m alone.
What about your friends or family? Particularly in some countries, it’s true that public displays of unhappiness are taboo. Less-than-totally-public displays are kind of a huge part of people’s social lives everywhere.
Friends and family will either listen to a point before saying they can’t handle it, or some of them I wouldn’t bring these problems to in the first place. When I do talk, I get tired of my response being the thing they focus on instead of the source causing my frustration. I’ve attempted therapy for years with varying success; after some bad experiences I can’t trust therapists anymore. All anyone cares about is if my emotions are impacting them in a negative way, nobody actually gives a shit about how I am doing as long as they aren’t directly inconvenienced.
Friends and family will either listen to a point before saying they can’t handle it
Well, that’s good to hear. Hopefully it helps, and I’d also suggest that it means they do care, at least a bit.
Maybe they do need to give you more time to vent, it’s hard to say without being there. In general, we on the internet don’t know you and can’t have enough information to help you the way a therapist can.
Well couple of things, it’s entirely possible your friends and family are complete assholes, but sometimes people need to ask themselves how many times have they listened to someone when they want to express their negative emotions?
My wife’s cousin, her entire life she’s never once lent an ear to a sad friend/family, had had the audacity to tell an aunt who lost her breasts to cancer that she just brings negative energy and wouldn’t be invited to any gatherings at her house, now is suffering through a divorce and cannot fathom why the whole family kind of supports the husband and not her.
This reminds me of something a European told me about dating in the US. “Americans say nothing is wrong and then blow up when it’s a level 11 problem and i had no idea anything was wrong. Where I’m from we address it when it’s a level 2 problem.”
Be a level 2 problem, not a level 11 problem. That means you gotta fucking talk.
don’t tell me that the answer is just to “not bottle things up”
I hate to be that guy, and believe me I was in that boat once. But the solution is to not reach the point where you are exploding from the amount bottled up.
Humans are not meant to be stoic creatures. People have feelings, that’s called being human. You need to find someone you can trust(NOT A COWORKER), and every once and awhile vent to them about things that you aren’t able to resolve with the person that’s causing the frustration. That’s your best solution.
Reading your replies, this seems to be more a super toxic work environment issue which I think if you fix, will resolve most of your issues. Due to this, I recommend ON-TOP of the previous recommendation, also either contacting HR about it, or if you do not feel comfortable with doing that, finding another job. You should not be being bullied by anyone let alone a manager. There are so many work policies in place in most work environments protecting you against this, and not to mention most civilized countries have laws against it.
Being said, if you feel that it is less of a you bottle things up, and more of a you aren’t thick skinned enough to be able to handle the every day work-life without having anger issues and exploding, you may also want to look into some form of Anger management or calming technique. But honestly, it sounds like it’s a combination of the first two issues and less of an anger issue.
So you harbor resentment.
Clear the air, don’t take things personally, realize other people’s emotions are out of your control and move on with life.
Easier said than done, though.
Nice people tend to let things go, they will eventually catch up and you will blow. Instead when something happens or something is said you need to stand up right in that moment. This way it was dealt with and there is nothing to bottle up.
It’s corny and is championed by some shit heads but Meditations by Marcus Aurelius helped me to figure out how mentally center myself during tribulations.
It`s also on Standard Ebooks.
Yo I’ve never heard of this site. The older I get the more I like public domain media. Thanks for showing me this.
No problem :). Standard Ebooks fixes many mistakes present in the Gutenberg&/archive.org versions of public domain e-books so it‘s definitely a better choice. The only issue with it is that its library is much smaller compared to Gutenberg.
There’s nothing corny about stoicism, as long as you see through the people trying to monetise it.
Take a lesson from welding class: You release what you’ve got bottled up just right with a little spark and you get an intense yet precise flame. It’s amazing what you can get done with skillful application of said flame.
